Recap

[plemonic]

I haven't posted in a while. Hello.

Late March to early April, I went on a holiday trip with my family. We went to a hotel next to a beach (yippee!) to meet extended family from my grandpa's (my mom's side). It was kinda a blast but I didn't swim there. In fact, I can't even swim. But it was fun. I took some pics and picked up some corals that were lying out there. They were nice.

A few weeks ago I went to a film workshop that was held in an Islamic university here. I love films, and one of the committee members on it is someone I knew since middle school so... why not. I didn't dress like some Muslims would expect me to (cuz, I'm, y'know) but thankfully they didn't mind. They were very welcoming. (Not that they know what I am anyway.) In fact, some of the committee members thought I was really cool, LOL. But yeah, it was kinda fun. They had two Indonesian filmmakers as the speakers, and I learned a lot. Idk if I want to make a movie yet, but having the knowledge is not gonna hurt anyone. :P And they're gonna have a film festival in September, so fuck yeah I'll be there to watch.

Well... college already started and I'm honestly kinda exhausted trying to keep up with the discussions and assignments. I mean, I know I can do it. But it's kinda annoying having to remember the deadlines. :P Not to mention that this semester I'm having a capstone project, and all of this is gonna be done online, and some people in my group are VERY inactive. Cool. I'm tired and very close to crash out and shit. But it's fine. I'm graduating next year.

Speaking of college, there's finally a language club for my university. And it's fun. I'm in it. There's nothing more to say about it, I guess. At least I don't feel very isolated anymore(?)

I'm also in this state of extreme... Anything. Something good happens? THAT'S GREAT! A minor inconvenience happens? Well, I'm very close to end my life. This line of thinking is making me exhausted, most of the time I find myself gaslighting myself that everything is fine. (Honestly don't know if it is, I'm just trying to be hopeful. Not that I'm that suicidal anyway. I decided not to kill myself no matter what. Well, maybe in a certain occasion.)

That's it, I guess. Sorry (I'm not) for any grammar mistakes and shit. I'm trying to summarize my life this month so I can keep track of my life... For myself. I think. Idk. If you read this, I hope you found it entertaining. If not then, oh well, the world keeps spinning.

Happy Labor Day.