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I feel stuck in life and very suicidal as usual. It's funny because I had more fun this year than in the last few years. I don't know. I feel like everyone is having a great success and pursuing their careers or studying abroad and I'm just here being bitter because I've tried everything and nothing fucking changes. I feel like if nothing changes and I'm still in this country in the next few years, I'll have to kill myself because of being an embarrassment and a failure as a human being. Maybe that'll be better for the Earth to have less worthless trash like me.