[sticky entry] Introduction.

Monday, 17 July 2000 10:27 pm
plemonic: (brad renfro)

Hey! Call me AD. I don't have a lot to say here; I'm using this as a way to get away from modern social media. This is like, a calmer Twitter for me (and I'll treat my own journal like it).

I'm mostly here to talk about my life and stuff, maybe some fannish things here and there (though I am NOT actively involved or engaging with any fandom community). Some stuff I'm into: The Faculty, Hannibal, Psych, Buffy, Supernatural, Four Brothers, The Social Network (yes, that Facebook movie), CSI, Saw, Final Destination, Breaking Bad, and bandom. (I'll add more when I remember.)

Warning! English is not my first language, and if you found a lot of grammar errors I apologize. Some posts are put under cut and locked to friends only when necessary, because sometimes I can be questionable. Hell, maybe I'll put some on private. LOL, sorry not sorry. This journal is mostly public, though. I also swear a lot in my posts, hope you're okay with that.

You can find me on SpaceHey or check out my website that I haven't updated in months, if you want. I'm also on Letterboxd.

Feel free to add me! I don't care if we have some things in common or not. Reading and learning about things I've never heard before is always fun. Just don't be an asshole. I don't tolerate bigotry.


Edited March 14, 2025.

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Monday, 7 July 2025 11:11 pm
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Hello. Sorry if you read my last post, it was meant to be a private entry. But erm...

I've been fine now mostly. I guess. I've made a wallet (we have a sewing machine now), made some friendship bracelets (for me, still not sure if they're good enough for my friends), and been watching Gossip Girl. (I hate Chuck but he's got the funniest line. I also hate Nate's dad. What an ass.) :P Well maybe life isn't so bad after all, but it is certainly boring right now. I'm having a few months off before the next semester starts, and I don't really know what to do. Maybe ask my irl friends to hang out... If they're in the city, of course. Or continue with the free bootcamp. Idk. All I know is that I still have around 3 months to change my habits I guess. I can't believe I'll be graduating next year.... Urgh.

Speaking about college, they changed the curriculum. Yeah, what the fuck. But it's okay cuz they got rid of the mandatory scientific paper research only for my major. Yippe. I really don't feel like doing it cuz *shrugs*. I know it'll be beneficial if that thing was still gonna be there in my major, but I don't want to deal with that while fighting suicidal thoughts LMFAO. And they're replacing it with Capstone Project, in which I already did this semester, so I don't have to worry about big shit coming up next semester. Yay.

Again, maybe life isn't so bad, but I still don't know what to do in the future after graduating. Well hopefully I can work as a fullstack web developer, that's what I want to do anyway. But eh, Idk. I'll just keep my heads up for the rest of the year, I guess....

Recap

Thursday, 1 May 2025 09:41 pm
plemonic: by <user name=raikune site=livejournal.com> (greg house)

I haven't posted in a while. Hello.

Late March to early April, I went on a holiday trip with my family. We went to a hotel next to a beach (yippee!) to meet extended family from my grandpa's (my mom's side). It was kinda a blast but I didn't swim there. In fact, I can't even swim. But it was fun. I took some pics and picked up some corals that were lying out there. They were nice.

A few weeks ago I went to a film workshop that was held in an Islamic university here. I love films, and one of the committee members on it is someone I knew since middle school so... why not. I didn't dress like some Muslims would expect me to (cuz, I'm, y'know) but thankfully they didn't mind. They were very welcoming. (Not that they know what I am anyway.) In fact, some of the committee members thought I was really cool, LOL. But yeah, it was kinda fun. They had two Indonesian filmmakers as the speakers, and I learned a lot. Idk if I want to make a movie yet, but having the knowledge is not gonna hurt anyone. :P And they're gonna have a film festival in September, so fuck yeah I'll be there to watch.

Well... college already started and I'm honestly kinda exhausted trying to keep up with the discussions and assignments. I mean, I know I can do it. But it's kinda annoying having to remember the deadlines. :P Not to mention that this semester I'm having a capstone project, and all of this is gonna be done online, and some people in my group are VERY inactive. Cool. I'm tired and very close to crash out and shit. But it's fine. I'm graduating next year.

Speaking of college, there's finally a language club for my university. And it's fun. I'm in it. There's nothing more to say about it, I guess. At least I don't feel very isolated anymore(?)

I'm also in this state of extreme... Anything. Something good happens? THAT'S GREAT! A minor inconvenience happens? Well, I'm very close to end my life. This line of thinking is making me exhausted, most of the time I find myself gaslighting myself that everything is fine. (Honestly don't know if it is, I'm just trying to be hopeful. Not that I'm that suicidal anyway. I decided not to kill myself no matter what. Well, maybe in a certain occasion.)

That's it, I guess. Sorry (I'm not) for any grammar mistakes and shit. I'm trying to summarize my life this month so I can keep track of my life... For myself. I think. Idk. If you read this, I hope you found it entertaining. If not then, oh well, the world keeps spinning.

Happy Labor Day.

New laptop!

Tuesday, 18 March 2025 10:37 pm
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Yep. We bought it today. It's not actually new new because it's secondhand. This bad boy is ThinkPad T480! :D God, this keyboard is fucking awesome, it makes me want to keep typing forever. I'm transferring some stuff from my previous laptop as we speak (I'm glad that it's not giving me BSOD at the moment, LOL). (I just learned how to copy files from one laptop to another using a LAN cable. :P)

One funny thing about this laptop is that I got the one with the touchscreen. Look, I'm not really a big fan of touchscreen laptops (PLEASE DON'T TOUCH MY SCREEN), but this is kinda nice. I think the screen is a bit dirty now, but I can clean it later. Did I mention how good this keyboard is? This keyboard is AWESOME. And the fact that it has two batteries is also very cool. Also a better screen, because the one that I had before has a bad resolution and shit. Though my one problem with this one is that the scaling is very weird, (100% is too small, 125% is still kinda small for me, but 150% is too big!) but maybe that's a Windows 11 problem. *shrugs*

I got nothing else to say. This keyboard is too damn good. I am exstatic.

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Saturday, 15 March 2025 11:39 pm
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I made my own DW layout, everyone. Well, I can't really say that I really made it... It was inspired by some journal I found while I was randomly scrolling through latest things. And by inspired I mean this has almost the same layout as that journal, except for the colors and some parts. The worst thing is that I don't remember whose journal was it, but still, shoutout to them. Heh, I talk too much.

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Monday, 10 March 2025 03:20 pm
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I wanna sleep forever and never wake up

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Sunday, 9 March 2025 11:07 pm
plemonic: ash dust baby screaming meme (ash baby)

I am officially 21 years old (thank you, Valentine's day), and there's nothing interesting happening in my life. I'm an adult now for fuck's sake. Why can't I be just fucking normal. Every day it's either: feeling like I want to kill myself or feeling insanely bored. Or both. Sometimes I want to kill myself out of boredom.

Well, I study sometimes. But with fasting at the moment I can't really use my brain 100%. I was thinking of doing an internship but most of the ones that I'm interested in are unpaid. Seriously what the fuck is wrong with you all. I fucking hate it. We all need money, we aren't fucking slaves. Sometimes I think it's better to collectively kill ourselves. Maybe the Earth has too much human living in it. People should stop fucking procreating. I hate everything and I'm tired.

Of course, with the new president, we're all gonna fucking die. This motherfucker, who's a war criminal by the way, is going to jeopardize our lives and money and OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH we all should just fucking die. I'm surprised that Indonesia is still standing strong because the government is doing everything they can to ruin our country. Fuck you. FUck you fuck you fuck you I hope you all die a horrible death. I can't love this country like I used to.

A lot of Indonesian people are talking about leaving this country and some stupid cunts will say something like, "wHerE's yOuR nAtIonAliTy??!!!@" BITCH. DID THE GOVERNMENT EVER DO SOMETHING GOOD TO YOU? NO. Unless you're fucking rich and a part of the elites, yeah, the government did everything good to you. Kill yourself. Greedy fucking bitches. For the past decade we've been living in HELL. No amount of protesting can change the state of this country I'm afraid.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH and I also can't seem to connect with people properly. That's fucking great.

plemonic: by <user name=raikune site=livejournal.com> (greg house)

Hi. I've been gone for so long. I reinstalled Windows on my laptop a few months back and didn't bother to log in to Dreamwidth again, LOL. I kinda did have a problem with my laptop and I thought a fresh install would fix it. It didn't. Maybe because it's 6 years old. But it didn't interfere with my coding assignments (and any of my assignments) so, whatever. I was thinking of using a Linux distro, but that means I have to learn using it, and I don't really have time for that. Anyways, I digress.

Happy new year! It's too late to say it, I know, I just needed an excuse to say it. 2025... Oh. It's been 5 years after the Covid outbreak, haha. I hope this year will be nice to me. We recently got a new shelf and a new wardrobe for me, and they are bigger than the previous stuff we have. So I think we're on a good start.

2024 wasn't all that bad for me. I have Derick, had an experience working in an "office" for a month... Then what. Not much has happened, I think. I dunno. Can't remember. Oh, I got two rats last month! :D I wanted two females, but turns out one of them is a male... So now I put them in separate cages. Sad. My mom said that she wants another so they don't feel so alone in their cages. Hopefully we'll get them by the end of this week.

A few days ago was me and Derick's one year anniversary. He's the greatest thing that came into my life and I'm glad that we have each other. I love that dude to death. I don't even know what else to say. I'm really grateful that he's in my life. <3

Now... I'm currently learning JavaScript. I joined a free online bootcamp for front-end web development. Hopefully I can finish before the deadline (which is VERY SOON), but if I can't then... Meh. There are still a lot of resources to learn from. I'm waiting for my last semester's grades. Really hope that the result is decent. Don't even wanna think about it.

I'm getting too much into House, lately. Right now, I'm on season 5. Most of the times I wanna kill that dude. Most of the time, I always nod at everything he says and tell to myself that, "dude got a point." I cried at the end of season 4. Who the fuck wrote that episode. Every time I watch, I watch it for Robert Sean Leonard. Because he's a "puppyman" (my boyfriend said this.)

Mostly I feel sad. Sometimes even nothing. Sometimes suicidal. At this very moment? Hell, only if I know. I don't really know what's going on with me, LOL. I'm really getting into the "law of assumption" lately (I know this law for about 4 years now!), and it makes me feel good a little bit, so that's great I think. Man, I don't even know. Even when I'm suicidal I don't really wanna die. I just don't want to suffer in life. Am soooooo tired.

Saying that I want Donald Trump to die won't get me killed, right? Right?

???

Wednesday, 31 July 2024 10:02 pm
plemonic: ash dust baby screaming meme (ash baby)

Will have my exam results in like, a week? I need to check the calendar again. I really hope I have good results cuz I've worked my ass off for that.

I like it when I finally have a few months off after 3 months of college. I don't get to put my energy to think really hard about my courses, and I can just relax. But after while, it's getting kinda boring and makes me contemplate my whole life. Not really great. Maybe I should text some friends and hang out with them? Idk...

Been thinking of actually get a job (haha, I know, I've said this many times) but my procrastination always wins! But I've been earning some money from selling stuff, so that's a good start. Even though it's not much, at least I can save them up to buy a chest binder, or something.

There was a small rat that came down from our roof (I don't even know how) and I'm afraid it's a little... Ermm... Dumber than the previous ones. We've been trying to get it out though. It's a shame cuz it's really cute :( I took some pictures of it a few days ago.

Hrgh. So bored lately. Maybe I should continue writing a fanfiction I abandoned a few months back...

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